Our Journey of Love

Last Sunday, October 19, exactly one month before our second wedding anniversary your Daddy and I went to see Dr. Aguilar for our second IUI procedure. I am writing this down so that you will know how much we wanted to have you in our lives. We prayed to God to bless us with the gift that is you. We already loved you even before you came into this world. We loved you right from the very beginning. Our love for you is that powerful, that strong.

We are in this journey together, our sweet child. God will guide us through all of life's challenges. He will shower us with his infinite blessings. We love you very very much. See you real soon.










Your father lovingly and bravely documented the whole procedure for us. He loves us very much!

I Don't Miss You: Does this make me a bad person?

I DON'T MISS YOU. I woke up this morning with that thought in my head. Am I turning into an evil evil person? I turned to Alfred and told him how I was feeling. Somehow I had to tell somebody close to me just to double check that I'm not going insane or perhaps insensitive? Alfred just held me close and assured me that what I was feeling towards you was completely understandable.

I did try and I still am trying to win your approval. But I've been brushed aside so many times. So many times you turned your back and countless other times you just walked out. Unavailable. That was my term for you. You were simply unavailable. Are you still unavailable? I never thought that feeling this way was even possible. In a faraway place and in a forgotten time your eyes lit up whenever I entered the room. That memory is slowly fading. Can we ever go back? You know if we both want to we can.